kootukaran... contd.

I send you a sms on the day before your exam.. you dont reply me back.
I write a post on your birthday.. I m not even sure whether you have my blog in your feed.. (for that matter I dont even care about that.. its just that the post conveyed my love to you)...
I come to your place.. you behave like a diplomatic jerk.. I dont care...
I tell you that I got placed.. I dont get a return mail..
I send you my phone number and explicitly tell you that I expected your call.. I dont get a call..

I keep sending mails to an arbit group with lots of acquaintances .. the mails are about my work life .. Not because I want to boast.. because I thought that atleast you will feel happy that im happy in my life.. I thought that you ll feel happy that Im doing good...
Instead I get a mail which projects me like a "jerk" before people I love...

but I owe you a lot.. you have been my conscience keeper.. my source of strength during distress... you have loved me .. my apologies incase I hurt you..

I respect "your choice".. its just that I ignore "jerks" and "jerk mails".. Not that both of us care about it any more.. but still I have my own value systems which value "friendship". Period.